#MaybeHeDoesn'tHitYou
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But he tells you you're a slut when you put makeup on.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But he gives you a curfew when you're out with friends.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But he punches walls to scare you into submission.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But he tells you you're impossible to love.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But he calls you a psycho for crying.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But he goes through your phone every night.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But he tells you he'll kill himself if you leave.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But then one night he does.
I spent far too long in a relationship where I thought I could save someone. I endured emotional, mental, and physical abuse while all the while thinking it was my fault. "If I was just better at this, if I didn't say that, if I could only..." I excused everything away because of a mental illness. I lied to family and friends. I was drowning and refused every single life boat that came my way. Until one night I decided enough was enough and I got out. Unfortunately that isn't where the story ends. It took years for me to become whole again and learn to love myself. I continued to cycle in and out of unhealthy relationships while abusing drugs and alcohol because I didn't value myself. Thankfully I have grown from a broken girl into an incredibly strong woman that loves herself fiercely. I hope I can be an example for my daughter to never settle for anything less than she deserves.
If you area victim of domestic violence and need help 1-800-799-7233 is the hotline number.
You can also go here http://www.thehotline.org/ and there is an online chat available.
And remember, you are never alone.
But he tells you you're a slut when you put makeup on.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But he gives you a curfew when you're out with friends.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But he punches walls to scare you into submission.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But he tells you you're impossible to love.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But he calls you a psycho for crying.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But he goes through your phone every night.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But he tells you he'll kill himself if you leave.
Maybe he doesn't hit you...
But then one night he does.
I spent far too long in a relationship where I thought I could save someone. I endured emotional, mental, and physical abuse while all the while thinking it was my fault. "If I was just better at this, if I didn't say that, if I could only..." I excused everything away because of a mental illness. I lied to family and friends. I was drowning and refused every single life boat that came my way. Until one night I decided enough was enough and I got out. Unfortunately that isn't where the story ends. It took years for me to become whole again and learn to love myself. I continued to cycle in and out of unhealthy relationships while abusing drugs and alcohol because I didn't value myself. Thankfully I have grown from a broken girl into an incredibly strong woman that loves herself fiercely. I hope I can be an example for my daughter to never settle for anything less than she deserves.
If you area victim of domestic violence and need help 1-800-799-7233 is the hotline number.
You can also go here http://www.thehotline.org/ and there is an online chat available.
And remember, you are never alone.
I'm glad to see that you have been able to build yourself back up. It's been over 10 years and I am still working on it. Some days it is a struggle, and I feel like it is because I lack closure.
ReplyDeleteEvery day, I pray I can be strong enough to teach my daughter the same things you want to teach yours, and to be able to teach my son to be a good partner. I'm thankful I have an amazing husband that he can learn from, also.